Cheri Boyd's Blog – June 2011 Archive (4)

Today I've been sick, matter of fact, I've been sick for the last several days. Despite it all, today has been a good day.  Why?  Today I put photos on my GenealogyWise page.  Photos that are vivid because I can remember when some of them were taken.  

Looking at pictures of my grandmother, Maud Wise Hairston, and putting them on this site.  Aiming that not only does her life continue because of her children, their children, but her name continues because I won't let it die.  She died…

I'm searching for an answer to a story that only I was told, or so I believe because no one else knows about it.  One day in the late 60's my grandmother told me story.  It wasn't a made-up before you go to bed story.  It was with wistfulness and cloudy eyes.  The kind that you share and it makes you happy and sad at the same time.  Why me and why that day, could it had been preordained that genealogy would be my forte?

She spoke about when she was little and how she and her…

I wish I didn't see things.  Pictures in my mind of what a place once was, used to be.  You were once here, you walked these streets.  Back and forth, to and fro.  Wasn't it natural that you tried to find more in life, and now I'm trying to find you.  

You never questioned me.  How do I know because I only think of my own children, and the children they will have.  Until now, and who will I be, I pray they will remember my name.  Never before had I thought of the next and next…

I find dead people.  I try to find dead people.  It is my hope that I'll find someone who is alive that will tell me more about that dead person.  In my own equation of life, I question my sanity.  Looking for something/someone who's life is buried.  Always asking the question "who were you?"  

Tempting as it is to stop, it's hard.  Could it be my addicted personality?  Perhaps, but finding them helps explain who I am.  My own existence is based on past ancestors, not just from my…